没用的我

这次并不是很普通的问题。。不是说没事就没事了。。
我不管用了。。
管得我多么的努力，尝试去改，他根本就不想给我一个机会。。
却说了".........."
真的好难过。。
我对于他来说，根本什么都不是了。。不重要了！！
我是一个人见人恨很烦，很令他觉得讨厌的人。。。
我真的是那么令人讨厌的吗？？
发觉，真的。。
静静的想，其实我们的问题存在很久了。。
是近来突然变得，更加的坏。。
我们吵架的次数，也越来越多了。。
不懂，真正是不是其实我们都不了解对方。。
想的/说的东西也有差别，所以误会就存在了。。。

没人给我机会,我是否该放弃？

问题

事情变严重了..
有意无意的情况下，大家都变了。
指责着对方的错，你说你看得很通了，是他人让你知道什么是现实世界.
所以你变得很自私，很现实，很计较了，不顾虑我的感受。
你讨厌我对你的碎碎念念，你讨厌我的一切。。
你说你可以没有我在你的生活中，没有了我你不会怎样，你知道我听到真的很心痛？
或许事情演变成这样也是有的原因是因为我..
我也变得野蛮，任性，不体谅..
你说的对，你太宠我了.已经把我给宠坏了.
不知不觉中，我也习惯了这样的对待，对你的要求/期待也越来越多.
我根本忘记顾虑你的感受，对不起我让你觉得讨厌了..
真的很对不起..

你说以前的我不是将的..
以前我是个温柔体贴的女生，很关心，你不高兴也会逗你开心的所以你会喜欢我。
*自问*以前我是那样的吗？

如今不同了，我让你觉得这份爱情已经没有感情了…
你说你想要回的是以前的我..
如果我能改呢？你又会改吗？
以前的我们还会回来吗？？
我可以，你可以吗？
你却没给我回答…
放心你所说的，我正在做着.
现在的我正努力着，寻找着我以前的自己..
希望你也一样..
大家一起加油加油，找回以前的我们..

cookie

*edit*

~night~
ill, i did ate alots of it..
with my damn full stomach and sitting infront of the lappie on9.
but told u, damn the P1..
the line are pretty sucks…slow connection..-.-
iuuuu..fainted d la..
then i painted my nail, so on i fall asleep…=)
J bii are goin out without telling , DAMN ass..
not bother i wanna sleep..
zZzzzz

-morning-

yea, people peeps..
chatting with “COOKIE” , who? lovely cousin.. LOL
what a siao siao kid..
at here complaining bored and nothing much to do, and now back to KK d.
complain that back to KK more bored..-.-
little kid turns to big kid d more mature d, he have no much addicted with those game..


as the conversation sure u doesn’t understand.
yea, we family are betting he not gonna to make it to come back on 20^th of October as he promise.
if really he could come back , each person have to pay RM100 for him..
awww..see how nice we are?

so cookie lai , u should come back la..
we are so nice to paying u RM100 per person if u back..


p/s: how is the future will be?

HELP

yesterday, really get affright..
mummy laptop suddenly cant on and the screen are black..
and i try to restart 5465348764 times, it only get back to normal..
on the time my heart are beating damn fast and say OMG, i’ m die this time!
but lucky is on back.. i know there is the problem there..
if mum know she will keep it off from me and i don’t have chance to on anyomore..T_T
anyone can help me?
i really POOR d, i can’t afford to buy a new 1 return back to mum..T_T
i really appreciated if anyone could help.. i would try to do anything that you want if i can..=)


oh ya. i wanna to say P1 are sux.
at start it cant play on9 game it is fine, i seldom play it.
just use to be, at least the connection thru the internet are fine.
but since the day and the day, the connection now are sux and sux..
don’t think even the light are on the green area, the connection are good.. it is damn BAD.
the basic 1, msn it need a longer time to sign in. don’t say wanna to make it in the facebook or fs.. !!!


* agonizing & tsk tsk*


p/s: anyone please HELP me.. if u really can help leave me a message PLEASE.

bless

oh yea, i got a red boom..
bless from Dino..
can say coincidence or what?
the morning when i work msn with him, and he wish me luck for the day..

see it, i never lie..

then the minutes i get the invitation card from Bryan.. he is going to marry..
crongratz man~~
wOooOo..
thx Dino d bless.. hope he will be good luck too for … GOD bless him..=)

jump the part..
I don’t remember how many times i get to wedding dinner since I’m start working.. =)

the card.. with my chinese name and added MISS..LOL!

among all the wedding invitation card this is the most ordinarily ..
yea, but the location are not ordinary..”WTF”-.-
is located at “ah yat abalone forum restaurant” ill..damn expensive..

wuhu, next month my wallet are dry again..

be away

who is he??
yea,my lovely cute cousin...=)

remember what i told, my lovely cute cousin went back to KK.
the day finally is come..and the day he waiting most.
he are in damn happy mood, finally can back to his own home at there.
no more boring in KL anymore, he dislike staying in KL.
because he have no friend here, and not allowed to went out...
awww..pity pity...=(

so now he are back to KK with his bunch of friends..
hmmmmmm..
having his crazy lifestyle at there..>.<

i dont think he will keep the promise that he do.. -.-lll
so now just wait and see it..

secrecy

*edit*..

yes, i edit it not to talk about what the pass 2day i’m do and where i been.

oh ya, i did bought a floral printing tube for company anniversary as been requested.
errr, actually is not a bad thing to try some new stuff like wearing this kind of clothes.
but normally for me i really don’t like those style, because i’m not really suitable onit.
anyway, for the event i finally bought it. among those floral printed shirt dress, i think the most satisfy is the tube top.
if i’m shorter it can be dress..=.=

okla..if u see it ugly den don’t run away, just tell me..
don't say too straight u know will make me heart-breaking.. =(
anyhow i will accept it, is the truth..

how to wear only will be nicer?
because my body are short!!!!!
no way can change the fact..*sigh*

with ribbon (behind or infront)

without ribbon

which look nicer??

okla..any suggestion leave me msg..
hope to know others opinion..

ciaoz!