dumboo

i’m still not in good mood ..
my mood still swing like hell..
i don’t know how to express all my feelings..
it just a lot n a lot..
i read a lot article, about love in FB..
but, i starting accept wat is happen..
i… just …
forget about it…
and i think i mess my life again.. =(
yet, i got freedom now.. but i feel alone..

FIFA , makes me sad.. i lose!
but , i get very excited with it..

update:
this word “ Hate You So Much”..
for me right?
this make my mood swing, heartache.. =(
i think it just a misunderstand, i don’t flirt ..
i’m the one who not deserve this, i’m not doing anything wrong..
you dump me, don’t ever say like i’m the one who hurting u!

ღsigning off, rukiღ

ღ對你ღ

*转帖，我只改了一些～

你突然の一句分手
把我對你の愛
都毀滅了
分手不是我要の結果
爲什麽我就是沒有說話の權力
是不是我沒有資格
還是對你我沒有反抗の餘地
一句沒感覺就說分手 ，事情就將了

把我們の回憶都封閉了
開心被封閉
傷心 都打開了

你對我
愛理不理の行為
讓我很傷心
我是不是做錯了什麽

錯誤我總愛推到你身上
因為我不愛認輸
所有の錯
都是因為我

你要求の
我從來沒有拒絕
你要の我都會盡全力給你

但我要求の
你都是推三推四の
沒有完成

那我能怎樣怪你
爲什麽你
不能對我緊張些
關心一些嗎

還是你覺得我管你太緊了
讓你覺得無法呼吸

原來太愛你
把心給了你
也是一個錯

換來，
只有傷心和心痛

我想不通..

这到底为什么？
就为什么事情是这样，我就好像死的不明不白..
很多事我都想问，但要怎么问我不会…
我提不起那勇气！因为我不知道怎么开始..
我怕！因为我知道你对我很狠你知道吗？
很乱很乱，我要问什么我自己也不知道了..
你应该在笑我因为我很笨，我什么都看不清..
你应该很开心因为我很痛苦..
你应该很快活，因为可以无拘无束的向别的女生打情骂俏..
那么我呢？就因为你的快活而痛苦..
就像我脑里的天使和魔鬼令我困扰..

p/s:谁可以教教我，如何才好？

i'm not ready for this all!

please make my heart stop beating, it is fucking pain..

I feel u r hiding from me.. izit i’m that undesirable?
I saw what you wrote.. izit that i force you for that?
and is sounds like i’m the one who hurt u, and u r the one who feel more hurt than me..
i don’t understand why u can wrote such things?
love = trade, love more = hurt more
and what u & me get in this dealing?
sounds hurt but not you, is me.. since u talk this i don’t feel u did..

****
无时无刻都在注意你，当你不在时我种莫明的失落，当你在时却又种说不出的心痛..

（转）不习惯变成习惯

习惯他的呵护，习惯他的温柔，习惯他的淘气，习惯他的笑容

甚至在不知不觉中，习惯用他的方式微笑，用他的方式温柔

我们彼此互相依赖，依赖着这甜蜜的习惯


每天固定的，我也习惯在特定时间听到电话铃声响起

我用最温柔的声音期待你的响应

但当传来的不是你时，我总是会有那么一点点的失望

因为我依赖着那甜蜜的习惯


然后有一天我们分手了，我难过、伤心、失望与不舍

因为我还是一样依赖着那习惯

但是我却必须舍弃“习惯”的权利

我不再有权利习惯他的呵护、温柔、淘气与笑容


于是我有了新的习惯

我开始习惯想到你时流着眼泪悼念过去的记忆

我开始习惯每天睡前不再有你的耳语

我开始习惯每天沉默不语……


直到有一天，我忙得忘了这些习惯

我不再习惯流泪

不再习惯发呆

我才猛然发现很久、很久没有想起你的温柔了

甚至有些忘了你的样子

只记得你曾经有着那样好看的笑容

不过，都已经是模模糊糊的了

那时候，逝去的爱情终于变得美丽，不再有遗憾


我们害怕失去爱情

也许只是害怕失去对一个人甜蜜的“习惯”

或许换个角度

我们并不是真的失去“习惯”

而是试着习惯没有那些习惯的生活

这，也是一种习惯

*（原文是你&他，我把它改成我&你）

不知道为什么，总感觉你有在避开我....还是我想多了？

Officially..

i’m single now, because i give out the first step to find out..
i thought the ending will better, but i’m wrong .. is really damn hurt..
got the lamest pretext for breaking up..
no feel, not happy within this 3 years and don’t want to waste my time anymore & i’m useless can’t give you anything..
fXXk! 3years d, only say no feel & dunwan waste my time anymore?!
did i ask something from you? even when u r not working, I’m the one beside you to help..
and what the hell is happening now?
what i get?
very smart huh? after finish take advantage then dump me..

is true, when a guy wanna break up..
what lame reason will be come out from their mouth, and say this is the truth..

i should let it go..
and please..
爱情别再来敲我的门了..

ღsigning off, rukiღ

down,down

what the hell was happen? i don’t like my recent mood.. =(
my mood was so depress..
i got no way to let it out, i’m soon become crazy..
everyday i got to put fake smile on my face.. it just can’t become like usual d..
to my sis, don’t worry.. i got NO new target.. i’m not that type of person..
if i’m, i will not become so suffer now..
and i just finding someone to talk, i don’t know who should i talk with already..
btw, i felt guilty d.. i had stop what i done..

i wan thankqiu , sun.. cheering me up..
and recently my mind was think and think, why he can do such thing to me?
i didn’t get any answer..
you know what, i feel really got devil & angel..
ughhh..
i really don’t know how to express my feeling anymore..
here, my fake smile..

btw, what i said咖啡喝了那么久，现在才发觉是那么的不适合自己的胃口..
izit real?
but what the true is i love coffee so much..



p/s : i;m delaying all the post now..

认真的想我并没有，知心的好友..
真的很悲哀..

ღsigning off, rukiღ